Karma is a fucking bitch. I got what was coming to me. But I deserve to get soo much worse. Everybody left me dt. Kind of a replay of about 8 months ago. Except this time I couldnt cut. Mom stayed there for me. She tried so hard to calm me down. Doesn't she know that I'm a monster? I use people i'm a fake. I hurt people all the time why? Because they did it first? That just makes me 10 times worse. I feeel so horrible and emotionless despite the fact I bawled myself to sleep. Like seriously I need to grow the fuck up nobody bawls from being left alone dt what an idiot I am.
I feel wonderful now. Not. I ate so much sugar and chips and alcohol today and I purposely didnt take insulin. Again i'm only hurting myself.
Ciao
