2nd blog of the day!

So another "eating" post I suppose.
My stomach is like gurgling/squishing. I was rolling my stomach to get like the extra air out and stuff and plus to work those muscles :) And now like an hour later my stomach is intensely making noise. I'm not overly hungry but like it sounds like my stomach is growling. Oh the fun of being clouded my eating thoughts. I'm so proud of myself I'm back at my happy weight for now. 125lbs :) I've been at that all day :) ! Now I want to lower my weight 10 lbs! I think it would be good :) But i'm going to start a detox and like cut out all the junk...which is literally 80% of what I eat. ok maybe 90%. I need to add in those greens! I LOVE veggies!
I also want to like harm soo bad. Soo bad. But like I don't want to cut because it will leave a scar and like I'm going on vacay and I don't want these huge scars everywhere. Maybe I'll start punching. Bruises come and go. Well I already punched my stomach and now it's bloated but that could be from the belly rolling. I legit do some sick belly rolls.
I've becoming a umm not so much a liar because liars totally piss me off but like i'm omitting things and just not saying how I truly feel, which is lying. Plussss I've been getting a potty mouth :O I was swearing some lot today. at least like 4-5 times! Damn burner. Burned my hand like a gazillion times.
Anyways off to distract myself from eating!