April 25, 2012

It's funny how the busiest week i've had I blog the most! silly!
Anyways i'm triggered. Weight wise triggered, not suicidaly triggered <- well not overwhelming anyhow.
Anyways I need to lose this weight I gained. I need to re focus my attention on what i'm eating because I've kind of let myself go the past couple of weeks and i've been eating chocolate everyday and Mcdonalds! Fuck that. I thought if I got a job there I wouldn't eat there...wrong. Like today I'm kind of proud of myself because my mind came into play and was like you don't need this your not hungry and your looking for an excuse to eat this stuff. Unfortunately I gave in because I had no other source of food on me. But I'm soo happy that my mind has kind of decided to work with me in trying to eliminate these foods and be like yeah you don't need that do you? :) I looked at a thinso blog and like I totally wanna like lose at least 5 lbs. I need to, I look unhealthy. Like the fat on my stomach compared to 2 months ago is disgusting. Like when I bring up how fat I am people are like no no your just curvy. No no curvy people are alot sexier looking then this. I would not consider my body curvy. Anyways i'm in one of those moods I suppose. I'm like legit starvin' My stomach has been intensely growling for about 30-40 minutes and I feel abit lightheaded so I suppose i'll grab something small and head off too bed. Wake up call like 6! Fun fun fun!maybe 630.....645 ok! :P
Ciao!