Hoppy Easter !!!

Hey !! 
Hoppy Easter Everybody!!!!
I'm in a hippidy hoppidy mood :)
The Easter bunny was good to me this year :P Vanilla chocolate bunny and $25 movie card and little eggies! Yumm!
Headin' over to the G'ma's and G'pa's house so I'm dressin' up! Yay!
Surprisingly I woke up bad but now i'm in such a good mood. I woke up from a nightmare where someone hauled my bellybutton ring out from my bellybutton. :O  I legit woke up thinking there was blood everywhere but I was just warm from all the blankets xD
Sooo the past 2 days i've been feeling somewhat better! I rediscovered something to take my mind of everything and that thing would be organizing. I love to organize things and chuck stuff! So I've been doin' that and I've been too tired and occupied that I don't want to think completely negatively, not to say I'm totally not because I am. My thinking did get me somewhere though, a friend randomly stopped talking to me, answering my messages and so on and I was completely stund by it. Then I realized the last time we spoke I said somethin negative about myself and she was after warnin me if I said something I have to make it up by sayin 10 positive things about myself, and well I only got 2 and couldn't think of no more so I managed to change the subject but then the next mornin she wouldn't talk to me. So I have a feelin that is why. Not completely sure and I over analyze everything to the bare bone.  So the punishment is that she wouldn't speak to me for 2 weeks. Harsh, but if this is why she isn't speaking to me it definitely smartened me up abit. Because like I really kinda want talk to her and yeah. 
I guess it upset me more seeing that it brought me back to me and HB but like I somewhat understand what I did wrong there. And I wish I could explain how sorry I am to her but I don't want to hurt her more than I already have. I'll always care about her :) So I'll telepathically send her a Hoppy Easter :) 
I miss bein happy, so I like this feeling comin back today :) I really don't want to hurt myself anymore. But it's like theres another person standin in the way constantly of me makin my decisions. I'll make one promise to myself now. Because I can't just live for the sake of other people. I will never cut again. Ok make this 2. And I'll never fucking smoke weed again :D I'll take my pain out into organizing or cleanin :) Or gettin rid of stuff :)
:) So that's another 2 positive things about myself. Actually i'm goin to write a list :)
1) I have pretty eyes
2) I have sexy calfs :P
3) I Care about people alot.
4) I am book smart
5) I make people smile :)
6) I love the little things in life
7) I'm very anal about having things in alphabetical order :)
8) I'm going to be nice to myself from now on.
9) I don't judge people before knowing more than one side of the story :)
10) I like NOT being skin and bones :)
That's 10 positive things about myself :)
Well I'm off I get some clothes on :) Don't you just love nude blogging, just kidding! In a nice furry robe! ok i'm off!
Ciao my pretty bunnies :)