February 29, 2012

Hey!
Thought i'd make a blog today just because it today only happens once every 4 years :P
Ok, so what to say today!
I've learned that i'm a very impatient person. I hate when I don't get my way. That sounds bratty is a sense. But like I can go without a lot of things, asking for rides, asking for new clothes, asking for money, you know all the things teenagers usually ask for :P But I hate not being talked to. Like when something goes wrong with a friend,  yes I'll have my sooky moments and be like fuck you for like half a day....then flip at you, then be sorry for flipping because It was a spur of the moment thing, then have a conversation about whats on the go. Like this is usually done within one to two days just to get it out of the way and have things return back to normal. I don't get how people can go longer than that and have everything bottled up. Like flip out when it happens. Yes people say unnecessary things when there're mad but most of it is forgiven. Especially if you like the person. Like ok things aren't cut and dry like that. Me and allie jeez we'd have the biggest fights, I'd be mad at her for weeks on end but at least we talked about it...we sat down and had a non-yelling conversation and dealt with what was going on. Now 5 years later we still talk and hang out, things are good. I just don't get people in general. Now maybe this is me being not being rational about things? That's where the brattyness comes into play. Like If I want to talk to someone I wanna talk to them regardless what happens. I hate when nothing is done because it pisses me right off. It just draws me further and further away, and then we never talk again because in this process I throw a fit and do everything I can to eliminate this person from my life. It's not because I hate them but its because It hurts to have them there. It hurts way too much and I just can't stand it. I have an obsessive stalkerish behavior on some things LOL people is one of them, I will stalk someone severely if I want to find out something. So thats why I throw a fit like that. Because I see things about them and you know what i'm obviously not in there life anymore so its just a tease really. Like walking past a clothing store everyday and you know you can't buy anything.  Bad comparison but still. Ok this may be completely obviously to people I know. But whatever it's how I feel and i'm not being judged by it. Maybe I am who knows :P
Well anyways partyin' it up dt tomorrow at liquid for a dance :D Soo excited !
I'm out!
Ciao!