March 2nd, 2012

Hey
Ya know it's bad when I post 2 blogs in one day :O
Ok it may be all over the place again.
Well I had plans to go dt to go dancing. Had being the word. Now it's not totally done and over with saying i'm not for sure going buttttt We are suppose to be meeting to go down at 11....which is in one minute. Have not heard from this person. Ok I kinda had a feeling today she wasn't big on going for some strange reason, but she seemed excited for the past week about going. Anyways not the reason i'm pissed. She has not had the flippin nerve to text me about it. I didn't get ready, thank god. But as far as i'm concerned now I ain't going down because I got myself worked right up. And ya know what happened last time I forced myself to go down when I wasn't in a good mood. Yeah. Not dealing with this very well atm. I legit don't get people in general. The topic in general frustrates the crap out of me. I don't get the reasoning of things unless its explained but like still then I don't understand. It's just the lying, and the dis-interest, maybe its me. I wouldn't out it against my mind to completely fuck me over. Either way if it's my mind, everybody is a liar. Nobody cares. They need that weak person to take their troubles up upon. To yell at, to hit, to abuse. And here I thought I was my own worse enemy, Well I am and i've done most of the damage, i'll just let everyone else take their last few kicks at me. Finish it off.
Soo i'm ending this blog on an extremely highly pissed off level. I'd drink but I drank it all. I'd talk , but everybody I talked to are sick of my childishness and troubles.
Soooo I can't take anymore of this tonight.
You might here from me again.
Bye