March 7, 2012

Hey
Soo my brilliant idea of getting better is just starting to sound more fucked up to me. What odds I'll try.
Just finished watching the virgin suicides...pretty decent movie :) This has been an overall boring ass day.
Oh oh and to top this off I got an email back from kent. They aren't interested in hiring me at this time. Maybe it was that damn math test..Who knows maybe it's me in general who wants to hire an unstable shy teenager who would be of no benefit to them. And the thoughts come back. Nice to see you back again not.
On top of my awesome idea to cut the negative people out of my life. Which is pretty much everyone really. So In the past 4 days I've rejected about 7 or 8 plans. Why you want to hang out with me? because your bored and because its for your own sanity? How about when I made plans with you and you dropped them like they were nothing. I'm sorry but I can't hang out with you if you couldn't hang out with me that one time I needed you to. To this i'm referring to alison. So what i'm really doing to get better is to eat/isolate myself from people because theres only one god damn person I want to talk to or hang out with and I can't. You better know who you flipping are! And the selfishness sets back in. This is going to be a fun ride.
Ciao.