So a recap of these past couple months.
Jan.16- Seen the ED team I was 5ft7inches tall and 128lbs. 120/60
Feb 1-7 Officially out of school.
Feb. 8 Doc checked weight 124lbs and 5ft 7.
Feb.21 Diabetes doc checked weight 124lbs 5ft 7 125/62 pulse 76 perfect.
March 5 ED team checked weight 122lbs 5ft 7. Vitals unkn But she kept asking if I was dizzy and if i was o.k
Recap of what i ate. Woke up at 0930 and ate a rice krispie bar and 125ml of water. Then I had a Granola bar at 100pm. Had a few sips of diet pop at 200pm. Supper at 400pm 5 chicken nuggets, 3/4 scooped potatoe and 1/2 cup of dressing with gravy. Finished off the diet pop bottle. had 2 small chocolates. All I had. I'm not starving myself. It's 1030pm now and I havent had anything since because i'm sick and full I suppose plus my sugars are 11mmol.
I personally am not trying to lose weight. But I do think i'm fat. I really do. Ok my ankles are small and I like my lower legs but like the top is soo huge and fatty. And my hips just have fat everywhere. Maybe I should get down to a swimsuit and just draw on my body what i like and dislike. Ahhhh maybe I should try and take an extreme step so the choice is taken out of my hands. Because I don't think i'll seek help any other way. Like with my eating, but i am reaching out for help with these thoughts. oh well I'm getting set up with someone. Don't mean to repeat myself like twice in 2 diff blogs. Good things there is an unlimited blog posting to these :)
Well Gone to watch PLL :)
Bye!
I normally eat one meal a day, sometimes two, depending on mood. I jog everyday, but it's mostly to burn out any frustration from my mind. I realized that after a few weeks of jogging I started to notice my body began to feel lean, but my weight did not change that much. I suppose I traded some fat in for muscle. I'm not a doctor so I have no idea, but physically I felt better about myself. Mentally, that's an entire different story. lol maybe being vegetarian helped also.
ReplyDeleteOh also, I don't watch PLL (Pretty Little Liars i assume) but I read the books. Currently I'm deep into book 4 and it's really good. Please don't spoil anything for me. To me, the most interesting relationship in the books is Emily and Maya. I can relate to her struggle with her feelings.
:) I've started doing sets of 20 sit-ups at a time. But the weight is just flying off me, it's crazy. I keep hearing that i should gain muscle because it will look better but i'm afraid to gain weight. I tried being vegetarian and i would only for the fact I love bacon. Only meat product/milk/egg animal product I like.
ReplyDeleteI won't spoil anything for ya, i'll refrain from posting about it! Heheheh I love Emily and maya But I like her with someone else to :) Emily's storyline is just awesome is general :) The books and the show are totally different!
The first part of my comment was in hopes that maybe the thing I did (jogging and all) could help you a little. I suppose bodies work in different ways, but that is what I did. Hope it helps somehow. :)
ReplyDeleteI would but it's too cold and there's snow! I really want to take up jogging with someone though, I work-out better with competition. Me and my sister do sit-ups together like I do 20 she does 20 and so on :) Thanks though :)
ReplyDeleteYour welcome.
DeleteSince I'm on book 4 of PLL, could I watch season 1 and not spoil anything for myself?
Hmmmm I haven't read all the books, but i'm pretty sure you can. I read the first 3 i think I'm almost certain, it follows the same timeline ish but different characters and It will confuse the shit out of you! LOL
Deletelol That's all I need in my life, more confusion. :)
ReplyDeleteHahaha really though. :P
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